It’s been just over a week since I last had a drink . I would love to say I feel better but i don’t , I do feel like I am getting more sleep and waking up feeling brighter but I honestly thought I would feel different after a week .
I know this will be a long process to get through and will always be a daily battle for the rest of my life .
But as I sit here tonight sober I try to think how my life got to this point and I really don’t no . I used to smoke may years ago and when I stopped I think I replaced it with a glass of wine. It’s no excuse I am the reason it’s got this bad .
I have never picked up a drink in the morning , I still go about my day doing all that’s asked of me , but once the evening comes around I sit alone most nights with a bottle of wine . Whether it be a good day or a bad day , any emotion that I am feeling becomes an excuse to open a bottle .
But I have made it a whole 8 days and I am taking it as a win .
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