A diary for me

I am not feeling myself tonight

I am feeling very low and just lost in this journey. I know why I am doing it , I am doing this because my drinking started to get out of control and I have to remain in control of it .

I hate the feeling of not being in control.

I am sat here feeling uncomfortable and agitated , about my life , how did it get to this point but I no why it got to this point . It got to this point because of me .

I have a weakness for a drink but it will not define me anymore , I will keep battling on and get to a better place , because deep down I no I can .